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my recovery journey, i am often amazed by what i feel is important these days and how my behaviors seemingly, auto-magically, support those notions. each day clean, as i have been told ad nauseam, is a day won. i get that, and yes here is the caveat to that, after a minute or so clean, it does not feel as if it is that big of deal, staying clean just happens, at least for me. i rarely stop and look around on my recovery journey to see where i am, even though i often peer back into those ancient times, to see where i have been. pausing to take a peek at my spiritual, emotional and physical landscape today, i can see that i have very little to complain about, at least when i am looking at my own stuff. taking a look at those around me, well not so much. i have a peer who is lost in the land of self-obsession and does not hesitate to blame everyone around them for the consequences of their self-will. i have loved ones, who seem to be “stuck” in a downward spiral because they choose not to “over-extend” themselves.
this morning has gotten away from me, as i have been distracted by work, cigars and trivial other stuff. i am not sure where i was going, and i am really not sure where i am, in the process of getting down in words what i see around me today. i do know that i NEED to get out and at least walk with purpose this morning, after i tripped and fell yesterday, otherwise i will stiffen up and lose my momentum. i do know that i NEED to look at something the boss sent me and comment on how we are going to use the tools the company is starting to insist we start using. i know i feel good physically, with the exception of the consequences of my flesh and blood hitting the asphalt. spiritually i am at peace with where i am, and am getting excited about my upcoming summer vacation to Iceland and Ireland. emotionally i am starting to move from intolerance and impatience to acceptance of what is, in the lives of those around me. so i think i will conclude with all of that and get out to enjoy the warm weather, before the wind kicks in, once again. it is a great day to be on the open road of recovery, just for today.

∞ DT ∞