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Sat, Apr 30, 2022 08:48:04 AM


🚶 moving forward 🏃
posted: Sat, Apr 30, 2022 08:48:04 AM

 

in FAITH that the POWER that fuels my recovery will provide me the opportunities to see the ways and means to get what i NEED, feels like the same old tune, overplayed and way out of touch my reality. part of the issue, is that i have been clean for a minute and time and again, i have covered the seemingly same ground:
tolerance ➻ acceptance ➻ faith ➻ courage ➻ surrender.
time and again i fall back into that rhythm, but lately it feels as if i am being at a minimum disingenuous with myself, if not flat out dishonest. day by day, i see examples all around me of those who seem to live in self-will with very few obvious consequences and i wonder if that is a path i can take. i certainly was tempted to do sop, to “share” back at a peer who seems to keep blaming me for what befell them as a result of their actions. as i listened last night during my TENTH STEP and again this morning as part of my ELEVENTH, i saw that was just as “self-willish” as my peer and that perhaps i needed to choose another topic. what that topic may be, has yet to be determined and i am tempted to put this into the hands of the POWER that fuels my recovery, by opening a book at random, pointing blindly at the text on the page and using that as my “seed.” the more i consider that notion, the better it sounds and the stronger my inclination is to let go and see what happens.
perhaps, just maybe, that entire decision-making process is a metaphor for what needs to happen in my life today. instead of forcing an outcome, i think i may just rely on that POWER, to show me the way. i have a few things i wish to accomplish today and amongst them is my desire to be present for some friends at dinner tonight. what i am getting is a sense that if i make my plans for today, do my best to accomplish them and if they do not pan out, allow myself the freedom to accept what happens, with very little wailing (😭 😭 😭) or gnashing of my teeth. randomly selecting my topic for this morning, is on!

∞ DT ∞

 

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Another Look!

↔ doing for me ↔ 248 words ➥ Saturday, April 30, 2005 by: donnot
∞ unwilling to make the decisions i know i must make to move forward ∞ 440 words ➥ Sunday, April 30, 2006 by: donnot
∞ i sometimes allow myself to become stuck in the problem ∞ 562 words ➥ Monday, April 30, 2007 by: donnot
δ sometimes what occurs in my life can be frightening, as change often seems.  δ 219 words ➥ Wednesday, April 30, 2008 by: donnot
↔ at times i may get stuck in my recovery … 532 words ➥ Thursday, April 30, 2009 by: donnot
∞ my ongoing recovery is dependent on my relationship with a loving God ∞ 984 words ➥ Saturday, April 30, 2011 by: donnot
λ moving forward with FAITH, i can see that the strength of a Higher Power λ 760 words ➥ Monday, April 30, 2012 by: donnot
ε i trust that the POWER that fuels my recovery ε 776 words ➥ Tuesday, April 30, 2013 by: donnot
¥ through the grace of the POWER that fuels my recovery, ¥ 591 words ➥ Wednesday, April 30, 2014 by: donnot
♥ do for me what i ♥ 679 words ➥ Thursday, April 30, 2015 by: donnot
⤞ what i find ⤝ 800 words ➥ Saturday, April 30, 2016 by: donnot
⇘ GOD does ⇗ 714 words ➥ Sunday, April 30, 2017 by: donnot
🏚 getting stuck 🗱 784 words ➥ Monday, April 30, 2018 by: donnot
🌋 what occurs 🌈 561 words ➥ Tuesday, April 30, 2019 by: donnot
💥 unexpected change 💥 555 words ➥ Thursday, April 30, 2020 by: donnot
🙇 unable, afraid, 🙏 467 words ➥ Friday, April 30, 2021 by: donnot
🚣 the value 🚶 452 words ➥ Sunday, April 30, 2023 by: donnot
🎭 i am no longer 🎬 610 words ➥ Tuesday, April 30, 2024 by: donnot
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

THE TAO TEH KING, OR THE TAO AND ITS CHARACTERISTICS
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 2

1) Governing a great state is like cooking small fish.