โ doing for me โ
Posted: Sat, Apr 30, 2005 08:31:44 AM
one of the most difficult concepts i have trouble getting into my pointy little head, is that if i have FAITH and LET GO, GOD as i understand the concept will take care of whatever needs to be taken care of. this inability to stay in control and analyze the shit out of every little feeling, decision and behavior i am currently exhibiting is causing me to be in a gridlock -- decisions are being made for me, because i cannot see my way clear to make decisions myself.
do i enjoy making the decision to not make a decision and then coat it with some arcane spiritual principle and act as if this was what i intended all along? well if this was about saving face (as it often is) the answer would be sure -- move along nothing to be seen here! however, today, i want to save my ass and the answer is no, i am living in the insanity and not doing the footwork to move through.
do i know what i need to do? of course, write the damn assignment given to me by my sponsor, share my work and revelations with him, let go of the whole garbage pile and have a little FAITH in GOD and the process of recovery.
∞ DT ∞
do i enjoy making the decision to not make a decision and then coat it with some arcane spiritual principle and act as if this was what i intended all along? well if this was about saving face (as it often is) the answer would be sure -- move along nothing to be seen here! however, today, i want to save my ass and the answer is no, i am living in the insanity and not doing the footwork to move through.
do i know what i need to do? of course, write the damn assignment given to me by my sponsor, share my work and revelations with him, let go of the whole garbage pile and have a little FAITH in GOD and the process of recovery.
SIMPLE SANE ACTIONnothing i do not know how to do and something i am willing to try today.
∞ DT ∞