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so exactly what kind of awakening, if any, am i being led towards if i decide not to do any more step work. kind of perverse manner in which to start my blog this morning and it got me thinking about one of those other terms that some members feel necessary to spout off about. the whole ‘lower power’ idea. when i first heard this term from a sponsee several years ago, i asked him point blank exactly what and who is your lower power and he blithely replied anything that worked in opposition to his HIGHER POWER. so i asked him, if he was part of that lower power concept, and he looked at me with, puzzlement and bewilderment, and to this day has never answered that question. the reason i bring this topic up while speaking about spiritual awakenings, and the symptoms that have been manifested in my life, is that another member shared about the whole lower power concept, and about how this lower power was tempting him to use. this time instead of saying something or shaking my head in judgementalness, i just let it pass without comment or even much notice. back to the question i asked my sponsee once upon a time, part of my experience has been that most of the time it is me, myself and i who are in direct opposition to my HIGHER POWER‘s will for me. self-will, self-centeredness and selfish self-obsession are the symptoms of that opposition, so by my sponsee’s definition it is the whole ‘self’ concept that would end up being my lower power and no amount of sophistry can explain, rationalize or justify that little fact away.
so back to my original question where will i be led to if i choose to continue my inaction at working the steps? well to use a christian metaphor, right back to the hell of active addiction! it may not happen today, or even tomorrow, but i am starting to see the symptoms of the awakening of my disease manifesting in my life. that knowledge gives a feeling of dread and doom, that i can only counter with a large dose of....
.... gratitude and step work! so my plan is set for today, some money work, some step work and some yard work, not a bad way to spend my day!

∞ DT ∞