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was not what i was seeking when i got clean. all i wanted was relief for the consequences of using. sitting here a year after getting fired for the second time in my professional life, i am amazed the grace that i have received across the course of my recovery. a career that i enjoy and pays my bills, a relationship that has lasted nearly twenty years, the freedom to be myself after hiding for decades and a sense of owning the responsibility for my life and my recovery. as i sit here this afternoon being grateful for what i do have and not being all morose over what i do not have, i can see that i am fulfilled and yes, even happy.
the day ahead is filled with a whole lot of doing nothing, save watching football, enjoying a cigar or two and possibly taking third in my Fantasy Football league. next on my plate is taking the dawg out for a walk and just being okay with whatever happens. i do not have a whole lot going on inside today, but one thing for sure is that, just for today, i do not have to think about why and how i became an addict, all i have to do is focus on being the best recovering person that i can be.

∞ DT ∞