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Fri, Mar 3, 2023 06:54:09 AM
🤝 interdependence 🤝
posted: Fri, Mar 3, 2023 06:54:09 AM
and the primary purpose of the fellowship that i have made my home is a topic i almost skipped over and went back to my old source for inspiration. to me, this topic asks the question of whether or not i play well with my peers in recovery. of course the answer to that is: of course i do, nothing to see here, move along! 🤭
the REAL answer is most of the time i do, BUT and yes it is a big one, there are times when i certainly do not. as a human being with the tendency to form very strong opinions that i believe are 100% totally correct, 100% of the time, i can often fall into then trap of getting into conflicts with my peers, when they do not see things the same way i do. i KNOW, after all my time in recovery, certain things need to be done a certain way and when i get backed into a corner, my ability and desire to soften my stance and compromise, is severely diminished. it has been a minute since i arrived at this spot, and when i do, i know that it is my job to cease fighting, allow a group conscience to become reality. in the end, it may also mean that i end up walking away from that group or service body, because of my issues with the personalities that are there. been there, done that, and certainly have more than one T-shirt.
after a minute to contemplate and see if anything else is bubbling up to pop off the stack, i see that on this topic, there is no more. checking the rest of what i feel this morning, i am feeling more secure about my current job, as they are starting to trust me a bit more than before and certainly are assigning me new tasks on a daily basis. perhaps i am growing into a better fit for this team and might be able to make a stand here for a few more years, i did find one more bug in my code that i will have to address after i get back from my workout, it is the exact opposite of what my lead found, but i am fairly certain i know what is going on and it is a one line fix. so it is off to the cool Colorado morning for some miles and some steps, as i get ready to face this Friday and gratefully attempt to live a full life in active recovery, just for today.
the REAL answer is most of the time i do, BUT and yes it is a big one, there are times when i certainly do not. as a human being with the tendency to form very strong opinions that i believe are 100% totally correct, 100% of the time, i can often fall into then trap of getting into conflicts with my peers, when they do not see things the same way i do. i KNOW, after all my time in recovery, certain things need to be done a certain way and when i get backed into a corner, my ability and desire to soften my stance and compromise, is severely diminished. it has been a minute since i arrived at this spot, and when i do, i know that it is my job to cease fighting, allow a group conscience to become reality. in the end, it may also mean that i end up walking away from that group or service body, because of my issues with the personalities that are there. been there, done that, and certainly have more than one T-shirt.
after a minute to contemplate and see if anything else is bubbling up to pop off the stack, i see that on this topic, there is no more. checking the rest of what i feel this morning, i am feeling more secure about my current job, as they are starting to trust me a bit more than before and certainly are assigning me new tasks on a daily basis. perhaps i am growing into a better fit for this team and might be able to make a stand here for a few more years, i did find one more bug in my code that i will have to address after i get back from my workout, it is the exact opposite of what my lead found, but i am fairly certain i know what is going on and it is a one line fix. so it is off to the cool Colorado morning for some miles and some steps, as i get ready to face this Friday and gratefully attempt to live a full life in active recovery, just for today.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
2) It is only by this moderation that there is effected an early return
(to man's normal state). That early return is what I call the repeated
accumulation of the attributes (of the Tao). With that repeated accumulation
of those attributes, there comes the subjugation (of every obstacle
to such return). Of this subjugation we know not what shall be the
limit; and when one knows not what the limit shall be, he may be the
ruler of a state.