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Posted: Thu, Apr 27, 2023 07:14:17 AM
equanimity as part of living a life of active recovery? well the first thing i had to do, when i am not sure about what a term means was to admit my ignorance and actually proceed to look up what equanimity actually meant. i discovered this definition: The state of being calm, stable and composed, especially under stress. which certainly puts the rest of the source material in context without having to jump through all sorts of hoops and mental gyrations to fit a definition into an idea.
as i consider how this plays into my daily life, there are a few examples in the here and now, where i was far from balanced when i found myself in a stressful situation. the first being the two days i had to wait to get confirmed for my Mt Kilimanjaro trip and the second being getting a new “temporary” home for my home group. the former has been resolved and all i have to do, is to step into the footwork and let go of stuff while the renewal of my passport grinds through the bureaucracy. the latter? well that is still up in the air, BUT and yes it is a very BIG ONE, i have done the footwork and if worse comes to worse there is an on-line alternative.
today, i have a bunch of stuff to get working on and miles to go before i can jump into the shower, literally miles 😜. i know that whatever responsibilities or surprises that may come my way today, i do have the ways and means to deal with them. i may not be happy or content as my apple-cart gets upset, but i do not have to fall to pieces because of a pratfall. the recovery process has certainly brought me to a place where i can feel equanimous most of the time, and when i do not, i have a path that can lead me to that state of being once again. just for today, i can seek a manner of living in which i respond to the events of life on life's terms instead of reacting to them.
as i consider how this plays into my daily life, there are a few examples in the here and now, where i was far from balanced when i found myself in a stressful situation. the first being the two days i had to wait to get confirmed for my Mt Kilimanjaro trip and the second being getting a new “temporary” home for my home group. the former has been resolved and all i have to do, is to step into the footwork and let go of stuff while the renewal of my passport grinds through the bureaucracy. the latter? well that is still up in the air, BUT and yes it is a very BIG ONE, i have done the footwork and if worse comes to worse there is an on-line alternative.
today, i have a bunch of stuff to get working on and miles to go before i can jump into the shower, literally miles 😜. i know that whatever responsibilities or surprises that may come my way today, i do have the ways and means to deal with them. i may not be happy or content as my apple-cart gets upset, but i do not have to fall to pieces because of a pratfall. the recovery process has certainly brought me to a place where i can feel equanimous most of the time, and when i do not, i have a path that can lead me to that state of being once again. just for today, i can seek a manner of living in which i respond to the events of life on life's terms instead of reacting to them.
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