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do i have any active resentments today?? well off the top of my head i would say no, but the day is still young! anyhow what i do feel is a growing sense of responsibility to the fellowship that gave me this new life. i can become more than i ever was and am starting to get a true feeling of belonging to something more. sure i have felt like a part of my home group, and my area, and possibly even my region. but here i am starting to see so much more abot myself and where i fit in this fellowship. anyhow got to run, slept too much this morning and now have to hit it -- perhaps i wil have a lengthy missive later.
Thursday April 27, 2006 1:00 PM PDT
well i am back at it now...
... thinking about yesterday‘s reading and today‘ i am wondering where exactly i am. this whole experience has made me look deep inside of myself and reach for tools that i did not know i had. there are a few tasks i need to accomplish yet today, some i do not mind like assisting another addict in making some decisons as to who will become members of the board and one which i do not have the courage to face right now. telling someone i know and love an item of news that is not good. i volunteered for the task because i have come to love this person and felt that i could be the one that best breaks the news, but having that choice does not make it any easier. so now i have said what i need to, the time to move forward has come and i must face my FEAR and find the courage to speak. such is the stuff that once made me use, but i know that it is a far better thing i do .....

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