๐ค discernment ๐ค
Posted: Sun, Aug 27, 2023 12:36:33 PM
and autonomy are spiritual principles that i usually do not together in the same thought. as my source material suggests, they are part of forming a group conscience, and although do actively participate in service to my home group, i do not spend my days, contemplating what positions my home group should or should not adopt. every day life provides far too many opportunities for me to be discerning and to act with a bit of autonomy, to get caught up in the mechanics of group conscience, when i am not in the midst of helping to form one.
tomorrow will be on heck of an interesting day, as my friend may not make the leap into treatment, out of very active and self-destructive addiction. he chose for whatever reason to spin downwards, even when give a bit of HOPE. i am not sure whether or not i will hear from him before he out on the streets at eleven am tomorrow. for me to consider and worry about what he will or will not do, is not anything i am willing to waste my time doing, as i have more than enough stuff to fill up my life this week. he has yet to realize that his failure to plan, does not make it my emergency PERIOD! i have a life and he has yet to realize that he is not in the center of that life. his affect on who and want i am is very minimal and i not enable him to be less than he can be, as he has certainly become over the course of his vacation from the Boulder County Sheriff's Bed and Breakfast. he is about to throw away $3150 and be on the hook for 30K, give or take a grand or three. maybe he will think i am on the hook and do the next right thing, but that too, is beyond my ability to predict. maybe a little white lie 🤔 …
as i get ready to sit and enjoy the afternoon with a cigar or two, in a nice air-conditioned space, i know that letting go of what is not mine, is my best course of action. i am prepared to offer up suggestions, if i am asked, but otherwise i will keep my thoughts to myself. the next twenty-four well be telling ones and just for today, i am ready to post this little ditty and move on. it is a good day to be discerning about what i say and do.
tomorrow will be on heck of an interesting day, as my friend may not make the leap into treatment, out of very active and self-destructive addiction. he chose for whatever reason to spin downwards, even when give a bit of HOPE. i am not sure whether or not i will hear from him before he out on the streets at eleven am tomorrow. for me to consider and worry about what he will or will not do, is not anything i am willing to waste my time doing, as i have more than enough stuff to fill up my life this week. he has yet to realize that his failure to plan, does not make it my emergency PERIOD! i have a life and he has yet to realize that he is not in the center of that life. his affect on who and want i am is very minimal and i not enable him to be less than he can be, as he has certainly become over the course of his vacation from the Boulder County Sheriff's Bed and Breakfast. he is about to throw away $3150 and be on the hook for 30K, give or take a grand or three. maybe he will think i am on the hook and do the next right thing, but that too, is beyond my ability to predict. maybe a little white lie 🤔 …
as i get ready to sit and enjoy the afternoon with a cigar or two, in a nice air-conditioned space, i know that letting go of what is not mine, is my best course of action. i am prepared to offer up suggestions, if i am asked, but otherwise i will keep my thoughts to myself. the next twenty-four well be telling ones and just for today, i am ready to post this little ditty and move on. it is a good day to be discerning about what i say and do.
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