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to have HOPE. some time it feels weird to use the word hope as a verb. when i HOPE it feels as if i am wishing for something to happen, such as hitting those magic numbers to win the PowerBall jackpot. when i possess HOPE, to me anyhow, it feels as if something could come about, if i am present, seize the opportunity when it is presented and do what is required to make it reality. HOPE as a noun, is a much better fit for this addict, than HOPE as a verb and living my life with HOPE, because i have FAITH in a process i cannot explain, has become part of my DNA, as it were. of course, many of my peers would say i was far too cynical and missing the whole point, and they may be correct. for me it is better to live with hope, than to hope.
my sister was in town this week and i spent some time with my family up at my Mom's house. i am not certain who is changing, but since my brother retired he has become a bit detached from reality and seems to be floating in a world that is a more than a bit tethered. the other thing i noticed is that my Mom also seems to be detaching from reality and drifting into a world that is leaving her behind at an accelerating pace. i may be reading far more into what i saw yesterday, but what i perceived, real or imagined, has given me the impetus to stay active mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. i want to postpone my slide into the comfort of detaching from the real world, for as long as possible and i know that i have the ways and means to do so.
i live with the HOPE that as i age, which is not a bad thing, i can age gracefully and stay vibrant and awake for a very long time. i want a life that is worth living and in which i do more a-than barely survive to see another sunrise. i want a life where i keep growing and keep finding the ways and means to get all that i need,, just for today.

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