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without doing the work, is just making a wish. one of my favorite metaphors to illustrate the difference between wishing and hoping is the lottery. i can wish to have millions of dollars awarded to me by some set of bizarre circumstances or i can plunk down $2.00, for the chance to get that windfall. although the odds of doing so are astronomically against me, they are better than zero. the former is wishing, the latter is hoping, albeit without much of a chance of actually coming to fruition. the same goes for almost everything in my life, if i want something to happen, i cannot rely on luck, fate or serendipity, if it is something i have the power to effect. if i want a new job, i have to pursue it. if i want to save money, i have to make a plan to spend less. if i want to lose weight, i have to step up my exercise regime and eat less. any or all of those events may happen without my effort, but the chances of them happening is like wanting to win the MegaMillions jackpot, without buying an entry.
this morning, a couple of things kept bubbling up to the surface, the first was planning to close out my Mom's estate. that is a done deal. some time after 11:30 this morning. the second was getting items from the Big Box store and when i could make that journey. both of those were easily dismissed as stuff i would do later today and did not require energy during my dive into the void. when i got up, what i felt was a certainty that i am on the correct path and that i need to take care of all this bidness today, so i can free myself of constraints while i am working these last three days of the year. i also wanted to be freed from having to deal with estate stuff and all that i need to accomplish before jetting off to Panama in eight days. with those concerns taken care of, perhaps i will be a bit more open to seeing what else needs to be added to my FIRST STEP writings.
anyhow, it is a chilly morning out there and i think i am headed to the Rec Center, once again. i know that if i keep up my workout routine and step it up a bit, i will be fit enough to do 14'ers next summer as well as run my best time ever in the Bolder Boulder in May. i may even drop off the pounds of weight that i am carrying around. in the here and now, it is time to roll on out and get started on this day, remembering that just for today, i can and will have the courage to hope.

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