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through the challenges life presents is much easier said than done. i know that when i got clean and throughout my early recovery, controlling everything was part of my MO, and the challenges that came my way, i took personally and did whatever i could for as long as possible to resist, deny or medicate myself in the hopes they would fade away and i would never have to deal with them. certainly not the best strategy for living, but it got me through the night. today, there are times when i want to run from the challenges that i am presented with, on a daily basis, but i have enough recovery to know that is a failed strategy and one i need not embrace any longer. i have FAITH that i can get through each day clean, through the direction i get from the POWER that fuels my recovery as well as the program that has provided me with this life and my closed-mouth friends and peers in the local fellowship.
yesterday afternoon did not turn out as planned, as my friend had some challenges in his life to deal with and he needed to talk about life stuff. no light banter, flipping each other shit and joking around. life on its own terms sucks for him today and i needed to be there for him. i now know what i need to do for him and he knows where to get a lifeline when he needs one. a quick txt this morning to another sponsee turned into a phone call where he puked the same old shit. both of them got what they needed from me, whether or not it was what they wanted. me, i have to post this little ditty and get ready to roll out of the house to walk the dawg. i am back in the gym, working towards a healthier leg and my leg is complaining, big time. so a little walk will be a good thing and the challenge i see in my life today, are far from debilitating or dire, just a bit frustrating and overwhelming. i can rise to the occasion and be flexible as i respond to each and every one of them, just for today.

∞ DT ∞