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of my attachment to being right. when i came to recovery, i knew everything, had all the answers and was more than confident i was never fallible. over the course of time and my journey, i have come to see how insane that sort of thinking was and certainly still is. of course my source material was all about group conscience, a topic upon which i wrote about a year ago. this morning, what i heard had to do with my professional and personal life.
coming to grips with those with whom i work, especially someone who never sees any other way to look at a problem, caused me to be angry yesterday afternoon. what i heard this morning was not that i wrong or wronged but i was being defensive about my work and allowed myself to give away my personal power, over a petty little matter that really does not affect the way the world spins or whether or not the sun will rise tomorrow. no, i was suffering from a bruised ego that still has echoes of those past beliefs of always being correct. i see that in a whole lot of different aspects of my life today and it is certainly a symptom of me ignoring, at my own peril, by the way, that i still need to be diligent in practicing my program, even in the office. i can be a sick puppy and letting go of being right is a path to a healthier me.
on that note, i think i will put this to bed and move into the real world with the notion of listening before judging and letting go of my personal attachment to what i believe are “facts” and what are my opinions. it is a great day to open my mind and to stop protecting my ego from imagined attacks. i am after ALL only human and subject to all the frailties of the human condition, including being wrong, just for today.

∞ DT ∞