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it is me who is ultimately responsible for my recovery and my decisions, no matter what happens. the other day an item popped up on my news feed about a celebrity who has sixteen years **clean and sober** whining about how they could not do an interview because the interviewer would be smoking pot and how this was disrespectful of their “sobriety.” when i read that, i though “oh my,” one might surmise that someone who is working a program and has been for sixteen years might actually be able to sit in a room with someone smoking pot or having a cocktail or three. that has been my experience as i was at a wedding reception a year ago where many were imbibing and it did not bother me at all. i know what i am and i have the desire to stay clean, just for today. i was amazed that i did not judge those who chose to exercise their rights as adults in the state of Colorado and the last thing i would have whined about was them not respecting my recovery. instead of throwing a judgement against that hapless addict i mentioned above, perhaps i should have a bit of empathy as to their current spiritual condition and applaud the fact that they made a decision not to put themselves into that situation. if i had made that decision, however, i would not publicly whine about how terrible someone was, exercising their rights. in fact i would have said quite sincerely that i respectfully decline and leave it at that. that however, is just me.
what decisions have i made today? well i decided to work until i went out for my walk, hence, the dawg's walk is deferred until this afternoon. i checked in for my flight to Montana tomorrow morning and got a great position in line. i paid my mortgage, ran the dishwasher, walked three miles and txtd the addicts i txt on a daily basis. i also did my daily routine of prayer and meditation that keeps me grounded and connected to a program of active recovery. because of that i “get to” start another day off with a decision to stay clean, just for today and have the connection to the POWER that fuels my recovery, to give me the power to do so. as i prepare to move my office to a smoke-filled room at the local cigar hangout, i am struck with the fact that i can and will accept the responsibility for my recovery and best of all, not whine about having to do so. life is too short for me to be miserable or shame anyone else into doing something they would rather not do.

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