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who i was, who i currently am, and who i want to be, is certainly a daunting process. this is especially true for someone such as myself who has hidden the shadows of being every man since i was a very young pup. life under the layers of personas has left me more than a bit confused about the journey mentioned above and has become an overarching theme in my recovery these days. i surprised my sponse on my first step by reminding him of what had happened to me and how i reacted. i am now fucking tired of hiding in the shadows and want to come out as who i am, without deceit or any sort of disguise.
as i sit here on this fine Sunday afternoon, watching my fellow travelers, scurry about, i know what is next on my hit parade, a cigar and some serious relaxing. this morning was a damp trip to the bat cave and i did not climb up and jump off the rock. my leg is feeling better and i am more than a it concerned about aggravating the injury that has taken so many months to heal. persistence and steadfast behavior has paid off and just as learning who i am and seeing who i can become is the result of being steadfast in my program, so allowing myself the freedom to take it easy,is getting me closer to my goal of being able to run. both of those paths are who i am and who i am being and neither one is possible if i allow myself to slip into complacency,

∞ DT ∞