๐ป what can i ๐ป
Posted: Tue, Oct 7, 2025 11:08:15 AM
do to enhance the balance and harmony in my life today? an interesting question, for sure. getting in the swing of allowing myself the freedom to just be retired for now, is tough. i find myself reaching for things to do and activities other than playing with AI to fill the hours. one thing i decided this morning, is that if i wake up at 5:30, i just get up, instead of rolling over and pretending that i can go back to sleep. i may not have got out of the house any earlier, bu it felt like the next right thing to do and a decision that is probably one to keep making in the AM.
after a perfect night of football, my home team's arch-nemesis lost but the QB gave me enough points to win my fantasy league, i know i have to get into my other obsession and see if i can make the correct picks this week to get two victories. that is my next task after i do my daily round of job-seeking. i almost want to stop doing that on a daily basis as it feels useless and nonproductive. i am not one to admit defeat but after ninety days, it is starting to feel as if, perhaps it is time to call it quits and just look for a McJob, rather than returning to my field. there is something about doing the footwork and accepting what i cannot change. have i reached the point where that wisdom need to kick in? i wonder and of course i will allow myself the freedom to “feel” the answer to that question.
what i do know this morning is that this afternoon, i need to get off my butt and do some writing and take care of a few things around the house. i also know that i am okay and to restore some balance and yes harmony in my life, i can let go of outcomes and do the needful. i have FAITH that the POWER that fuels my recovery is presenting me the opportunities i require and perhaps even desire, if i just let go of self-willing things to go my way. maybe i really do not want to go back to a full time position in my field and i am getting the answer i truly desire. an interesting thought to put this baby to bed and move on with my day.
after a perfect night of football, my home team's arch-nemesis lost but the QB gave me enough points to win my fantasy league, i know i have to get into my other obsession and see if i can make the correct picks this week to get two victories. that is my next task after i do my daily round of job-seeking. i almost want to stop doing that on a daily basis as it feels useless and nonproductive. i am not one to admit defeat but after ninety days, it is starting to feel as if, perhaps it is time to call it quits and just look for a McJob, rather than returning to my field. there is something about doing the footwork and accepting what i cannot change. have i reached the point where that wisdom need to kick in? i wonder and of course i will allow myself the freedom to “feel” the answer to that question.
what i do know this morning is that this afternoon, i need to get off my butt and do some writing and take care of a few things around the house. i also know that i am okay and to restore some balance and yes harmony in my life, i can let go of outcomes and do the needful. i have FAITH that the POWER that fuels my recovery is presenting me the opportunities i require and perhaps even desire, if i just let go of self-willing things to go my way. maybe i really do not want to go back to a full time position in my field and i am getting the answer i truly desire. an interesting thought to put this baby to bed and move on with my day.
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