😒 would i rather 😌
Posted: Wed, Oct 22, 2025 10:51:43 AM
be right, or would i rather be happy? short answer, i want to be right and happy! i asked a question the other day about why some of my peers, whom i cannot stand being around are so popular with the rest of my peers. i wondered what it was i was missing and today as i sit here asking a different question, i am starting to get a clue or three about what may be going on. i am falling back into a familiar pattern of having to be right, even if it create chaos within me. my “need” to be right is overriding my desire to be happy. 😡
what then is the answer to this conundrum? the same thing i have been writing about for a week, do my fucking step work! i may not instantly jump on to the bandwagon with the rest of my peers, but i will certainly calm the chaotic storm within me or at least start to do so. i have often said i do not stay clean, day in and day out, to create my own misery and yet here i am, living in that house of pain. the irony here is so delicious that i am rolling on the floor laughing my ass off! 🤣
i have one more week of not working and as a result, i certainly know that i have to start getting myself ready to enter my new career in retail. with the inner turmoil going on, the immediacy of having to deal with customers means that i have to take a step forward into improving my emotional and spiritual fitness. i have a path forward and the ways and means to make it so. just for today, i will not find anything to distract me from doing the needful and see what happens.
what then is the answer to this conundrum? the same thing i have been writing about for a week, do my fucking step work! i may not instantly jump on to the bandwagon with the rest of my peers, but i will certainly calm the chaotic storm within me or at least start to do so. i have often said i do not stay clean, day in and day out, to create my own misery and yet here i am, living in that house of pain. the irony here is so delicious that i am rolling on the floor laughing my ass off! 🤣
i have one more week of not working and as a result, i certainly know that i have to start getting myself ready to enter my new career in retail. with the inner turmoil going on, the immediacy of having to deal with customers means that i have to take a step forward into improving my emotional and spiritual fitness. i have a path forward and the ways and means to make it so. just for today, i will not find anything to distract me from doing the needful and see what happens.
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