โ recovery is a gift, and i have to care for it if i want to keep it. โ
Posted: Fri, Sep 22, 2006 07:34:00 AM
while my recovery does not come with an extended warranty, there is a routine maintenance schedule.
and as silly as the analogy of an organic flesh and blood process, to an inorganic metal and plastic machine, may appear on the surface, the analogy is not about the object but what i do or do not do when i a given one or the other objects as a gift. i could run with the example and flesh it out for a couple hundred words or so talking about each of the things i do to maintain the gift of recovery i have been given, and i probably have done so in the past. no the train of thought that is triggered today is one gratitude for the gift itself and out of that gratitude comes a desire to care for the gift of recovery that i have been given. this morning, after a night of snoring my honey awake and wild dreams, none of them about using, i am grateful that i can wake up to the real world, have a gallon or two of coffee, ask for the power to stay clean today and move on with my life. i am grateful that i have a gift that apparently others want, as i have not been fired as a sponsor for a couple of years and have accumulated a few more sponsees and members who trust my recovery enough to share their stuff with me. so does that mean i get to rest on my laurels and take my recovery for granted? i wish, then the real interesting fun and games would commence. no what that means is that what i have been doing to maintain my recovery has to this point been sufficient and necessary to those who wish me to share my gift with them. that is no way saying that the gift will remain as it is, unless i continue to do what i have been doing and keep my mind open to the possibility that i may have to do more in the future. and what is it that i do? read the literature, work the steps, work with a sponsor, build my relationship with GOD through prayer and meditation, clean-up the stuff i need to clean with a daily inventory, and oh yeah, get my ass to a meeting. nothing too heinous or time-consuming, just a few more things to cram into my busy days. after all, my days would not be so busy if i did not have the gift of recovery!
and as silly as the analogy of an organic flesh and blood process, to an inorganic metal and plastic machine, may appear on the surface, the analogy is not about the object but what i do or do not do when i a given one or the other objects as a gift. i could run with the example and flesh it out for a couple hundred words or so talking about each of the things i do to maintain the gift of recovery i have been given, and i probably have done so in the past. no the train of thought that is triggered today is one gratitude for the gift itself and out of that gratitude comes a desire to care for the gift of recovery that i have been given. this morning, after a night of snoring my honey awake and wild dreams, none of them about using, i am grateful that i can wake up to the real world, have a gallon or two of coffee, ask for the power to stay clean today and move on with my life. i am grateful that i have a gift that apparently others want, as i have not been fired as a sponsor for a couple of years and have accumulated a few more sponsees and members who trust my recovery enough to share their stuff with me. so does that mean i get to rest on my laurels and take my recovery for granted? i wish, then the real interesting fun and games would commence. no what that means is that what i have been doing to maintain my recovery has to this point been sufficient and necessary to those who wish me to share my gift with them. that is no way saying that the gift will remain as it is, unless i continue to do what i have been doing and keep my mind open to the possibility that i may have to do more in the future. and what is it that i do? read the literature, work the steps, work with a sponsor, build my relationship with GOD through prayer and meditation, clean-up the stuff i need to clean with a daily inventory, and oh yeah, get my ass to a meeting. nothing too heinous or time-consuming, just a few more things to cram into my busy days. after all, my days would not be so busy if i did not have the gift of recovery!
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