cherishing my gift
Posted: Wed, Sep 22, 2004 04:41:55 AM
this morning's reading has always bothered me on one level. i like to think of recovery as a gift more valuable than some material object and i hate car analogies. that being said i have very few problems with the rest of the reading.
some things i need to do to "maintain" my recovery are very simple and they seem to work. i ask for another day clean every morning, and thank the source of my recovery each night before going to sleep. i have found that i need to attend at least 3 meetings a week still. and of course the daily inventory process of the 10th Step. i also need to work with others as both a sponsor and a sponsee or just as a closed-mouth friend. and then there is service to the fellowship that gave me this new LIFE. after looking the list over it may seem that this is a lot to do but the truth is when i came to this program i had to use every single day and the amount of time and effort that i put into "the getting and using and finding the ways to get more" was much greater than the time i need to put in on a daily basis to recover.
today, i cherish the gift of recovery and know that it is a gift that is available for any addict to get and hold on to. it saddens me to look at the emotional, physical and spiritual damage addiction does to those who are still suffering from active addiction have to endure on a daily basis. their suffering is a reminder that i too am just one use away from that life and that i need to remember not only the source of my gift but also what it is i need to do to hang on to it!
-- DT --
some things i need to do to "maintain" my recovery are very simple and they seem to work. i ask for another day clean every morning, and thank the source of my recovery each night before going to sleep. i have found that i need to attend at least 3 meetings a week still. and of course the daily inventory process of the 10th Step. i also need to work with others as both a sponsor and a sponsee or just as a closed-mouth friend. and then there is service to the fellowship that gave me this new LIFE. after looking the list over it may seem that this is a lot to do but the truth is when i came to this program i had to use every single day and the amount of time and effort that i put into "the getting and using and finding the ways to get more" was much greater than the time i need to put in on a daily basis to recover.
today, i cherish the gift of recovery and know that it is a gift that is available for any addict to get and hold on to. it saddens me to look at the emotional, physical and spiritual damage addiction does to those who are still suffering from active addiction have to endure on a daily basis. their suffering is a reminder that i too am just one use away from that life and that i need to remember not only the source of my gift but also what it is i need to do to hang on to it!
-- DT --