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and remember why i have chosen them, and pay attention to the gifts they bring.
when i find myself overwhelmed by responsibility it is difficult at best to slow down and appreciate the gifts that responsibility brings. i know that i am no different than anyone else, in this respect, and add on top of that the disease of addiction and i get an added little jolt of wanting to ditch reality and escape. after all., that is how i used to live, and how i could live once again, if i choose to do so.
so once again, i am back to gratitude for what i have been given. this reading could have been titled living in gratitude rather than facing responsibilities, as that is what i hear when i read it this morning. so along that line of thought, i feel grateful that facing the responsibilities of working for myself allows me the freedom to not be chained to a single project eight hours every day, i am also grateful that my career rewards me with enough resources to enjoy as style of living that is very comfortable for me. my responsibilities to the woman i love, and meeting those responsibilities gives me the gift of having more in my life than just my dawg. keeping him slim and healthy gives me the gift of unconditional love. doing step work, gifts me with the ability to face my responsibilities and as a result live in a manner that makes a smaller footstep on the world around me. doing the service work of helping the men who happened to choose me as their sponsor gives me the gift of having the desire to stay clean one more day.
i am sure by now you get the point, which is, life without facing my responsibilities would be a twilight existence at best. yes i can and currently am a bit overwhelmed by all i have to do over the next few days, but as long as i spend a moment top remember why i choose to accept responsibility in the first place i will be alright, and right here and right now i am alright.
BTW: the lights look great, at least in my humble opinion, this morning’s meditation went off in an entirely different direction, so i guess sometimes listening to what i want and taking the steps to achioevev it is a good thing.

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