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it is my responsibilities that are interfering with my responsibility today! i had out of town guests overnight, family from Montana, and so i have not had a chance to write this until now. after all, i WANTED to spend time with them, and my normal set of responsibilities had to wait. yes there is work to do, yes i would have liked to head over to Boulder for a meeting this morning, and yes i could go on and on. the truth is, without recovery, no only would i not have had the chance to hang with the family form Bozeman, i would not have had the time, nor a place for them to stay. the only reason that i could establish a relationship, much less actually get to grow one, is that i am clean today and am actively working a program of recovery. so a slight alteration in my morning, was not only called for, but was actually a welcome relief. the best part is i GET to go to Greeley tomorrow to support my cousin as she plays basketball for her school. not only was i invited, i am also welcomed and that is just the tiniest part of the miracle.
as the reading suggested, the responsibilities i have today is the result of a program and the CHOICES i make, as i walk this walk. the truth is, my work can wait, i can go to a meeting here in town and hang with my friends before i head off to pound the keyboard and do what i have to get done. life, especially this weekend is full to the max, and any whining, bitching and moaning, is a luxury problem, as none of this would have ever been part of my world had i kept going done the path i was walking. i know how cliché that all sounds, and yes this is one of those days, where i am a cheerleader instead of someone who darkly and cynically seeks the loophole. anyhow, i have lost my train of thought, so i think i will just close with this. today i am grateful for the responsibilities i have accumulated and as i walk through the rest of this day, i will remember that each and everyone of them, is the result of a good decision i made and not because i HAVE been forced into it because of events that are beyond my control.

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