ฮฑ i cannot just attend meetings, no matter how many, and expect to breathe recovery in through the pores of my skin. ฮฉ
Posted: Mon, Mar 10, 2008 11:53:45 AM
hearing endlessly about acceptance is one thing; stories about making amends may be inspiring,but to get the most from my recovery i must work the Twelve Steps for myself. so the magic of recovery does not just ooze into my being by exposing myself to members at meetings? bummer dude! however since i only attend two or three meetings on a regular basis as it is, it probably is a good thing that i do my best to live the 12 steps. yeah, yeah, yeah, i know you have heard this refrain over and over and over again, but truthfully for me, the urgency to plow through the steps has been quite diminished. yes i am working, or thinking about starting to work a seventh step, and have been for over a month now. but even though i have yet to start the writing process, i feel that changes are going on inside of me, as a result of having the 10th, 11th and 12th Steps in my arsenal of defenses against active addiction. so in a way, i am following the suggestion of the reading this morning, well there is really no need for spin, i am following the suggestion of the reading this morning. i may be stalled at the start of my third seventh step, but the actual living the program part, fosters the growth i need as i get ready to embark on the journey of my next step. so anyhow, it is off to work i need to go, with the thought in my head that if i want to continue to get better, i better choose to do a bit more work, it is after all, all about what i can do today.
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