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from my recovery, means living the steps, every single day. it also means knowing when to let go and walk away. i have one more opportunity to express my opinion and after my 10TH STEP last night and my 11TH this morning, i know that i just have to let that prestige bullsh!t go and live my life. my arguments fell of deaf ears, way back when, and i certainly do not expect that fact to change any time soon. i have wasted enough of my resources in an attempt to educate the unwilling and in my heart, right or wrong, it is time to continue my journey far, far away from this whole affair and find a new manner to be a part of the service structure. do i sound a bit bitter and angry this morning? well, i am and using the steps and the principles of the program, i know that i can feel those emotions, allow them to pass and not take out my feelings on anyone else, especially the object of my ire. it is my stuff and not their's.
moving on, the reading this morning drove home the point that i have to take responsibility for my recovery by living the steps. the steps that frame my day, 10 and 11, keep me sane and on a path that reduces my need to react to suffering the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune. i can respond and i can accept and let go, when appropriate and in my heart i “feel” i have to let go and be okay with what this day may bring. i have a mixed up, upside down day ahead of me, starting with a trip to the dentist, this morning. perhaps it will be warm enough for me to workout, outside when i return. i do know that i am being cared for and that stuff just happens. i can allow myself to be dragged once again into a storm of self-will and prestige, or i can continue to rely on the POWER that fuels my recovery, to present me the opportunity to be better than i was yesterday and the courage to stand up for myself and not be steam-rolled once again.

∞ DT ∞