โฆ when i practice using the steps and the other tools of the program โฆ
Posted: Fri, Sep 19, 2008 09:45:22 AM
...to work through my hardships, i become able to take pleasure in the joys of living clean. yes, it seems that i am using bunches of ellipses these days, oh well, i am sure it is a phase that will pass. so coming back to the REAL topic, enduring the pain and spreading the joy, by sharing both with the members of the fellowship i call home is quite a bit for me to chew on this morning. once again, this is one of those readings where i am already a member of the choir, and the ironic part is, that as time passes on this journey, more and more of these do not speak to me on the level they once did. not that i find this reading trite or cliché it just seems so self-evident to me these days that there is not a whole lot more for me to expound on.
BUT, in my hardships, two weeks and one day after surgery, my life is returning to normal. i had a massage of sorts yesterday, at least it was the best i could do with where i am in my post-op recovery. i am starting to eat more real food, although i have to learn how to eat allover again. what, i hear you thinking, what have you been doing for the past fifty-one years anyways, starving? well not really, but i have a tendency to eat quick\ly and not chew my food completely into the mush my stomach truly desires. as i transition into a more normal diet, i am finding that the old rule about chewing my food twenty-five times before swallowing, is the new rule for me and my new anatomy. i also lack the ability to know when i am hungry or when i am full, so now i must make a conscious effort to eat on a periodic schedule, and limit my portions by volume. so it goes, progress without some new ways of doing things does not happen in my life very often, so why should my health be any different.
the joys -- i am feeling better and i am finding more energy every day. i do believe that after my visit to the surgeon on Monday, i will be able to start my running program again. i have been accumulating sponsees left and right, but i have more than enough time to give each of them what they seem to need. and the weedy mud pit that was my side yard will be gone today, replaced by a nice finishing touch. so all in all, it is a good day to be breathing and be in recovery. so off to the showers and then a bit of service work before hittinmg my paid work.
BUT, in my hardships, two weeks and one day after surgery, my life is returning to normal. i had a massage of sorts yesterday, at least it was the best i could do with where i am in my post-op recovery. i am starting to eat more real food, although i have to learn how to eat allover again. what, i hear you thinking, what have you been doing for the past fifty-one years anyways, starving? well not really, but i have a tendency to eat quick\ly and not chew my food completely into the mush my stomach truly desires. as i transition into a more normal diet, i am finding that the old rule about chewing my food twenty-five times before swallowing, is the new rule for me and my new anatomy. i also lack the ability to know when i am hungry or when i am full, so now i must make a conscious effort to eat on a periodic schedule, and limit my portions by volume. so it goes, progress without some new ways of doing things does not happen in my life very often, so why should my health be any different.
the joys -- i am feeling better and i am finding more energy every day. i do believe that after my visit to the surgeon on Monday, i will be able to start my running program again. i have been accumulating sponsees left and right, but i have more than enough time to give each of them what they seem to need. and the weedy mud pit that was my side yard will be gone today, replaced by a nice finishing touch. so all in all, it is a good day to be breathing and be in recovery. so off to the showers and then a bit of service work before hittinmg my paid work.
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