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multiply the joy, divide the burdens. i like that idea this morning although it is getting late to be using the morning term but i will anyways. thinking about how and what i share with those in my fellowship has be doing a bit of an inventory today. i know i am sometimes hesitant to share the good things about the gifts i have received because i feel like it is bragging. and i really do not want to share the bad things because i am worried about what it will look like to those who i want to respect me. so what is this addict to do? well if i take a suggestion from the reading this morning, i will let go of my fear about my appearances and be who i am. whether the events in my life are good, bad or indifferent, i need to be more open.
being open is still something i fear, although that fear has diminished since i embarked on the path of recovery, i have yet to let it go. after all, it took me years to build up the façade of a successfully using addict who had his life altogether, so i cannot expect to let go all of that overnight. this is after all a program of progress not perfection.

∞ DT ∞