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...wants only the best for me. no matter what the circumstances, i find i can walk in faith instead of fear. so as i sit here frustrated about getting a program to work the way i want it to, i am impressed with how far into self-will i have gone this morning. although one or more of my readers may believe hat i am living in self-will all the time, they are entitled to their opinion and as such, i consider the source. so the time to come back to living in FAITH is upon me. i can stay frustrated, or i can ask for help. as asking for help, at least in this respect is outside of my time constraints this morning, i need to let go and get moving into taking care of myself.
taking care of me? yes, as a matter of fact, the biggest part of taking care of me, these days, is living in the the first part of my quote. i do believe that my HIGHER POWER is in fact doing for me, what i cannot do for myself. so the time has come to put that belief into practice. it is off to do what i need to do, this morning and perhaps i will make it back to add a postscript in a little bit. if not, i will be back tomorrow.
So i am back…
what i am thinking about now, is that how much of a factor FEAR has played in my life. fear of offending someine, fear of being found out, and fear of not being respected. all of this is silly little fears that play into what the the part of me i call my addict, wants me to bleive today. that part of me, feeds the FEAR by telling me lies that are so seductivew that i cannot seem to resist their siren call. so when i finally wak-up and realize what is going on, i find that i am further away from being spiritual than i was before. you know, this whole coming to bleieve gig was quite a trip and has remained so, right up until today. so now that i have taken care of myself, and feel better, the time has come to let go, live in a little FAITH and let the day progress as it will. after all, something GREATER than me can take care of the samll stuff!

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