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well it has been one of those mornings where everything i touch turns to shit before my very eyes. well not quite that bad, but if i were still using i would be FUBAR high and somewhere far away from being responsible. but the day will get better, as i let go of my expectations and deal with what i need to deal with. no wait that was yesterday’s reading. today i am supposed to be looking at how FAITH is replacing FEAR in my life. so is that process actually happening or am i living in an illusion? well the answer to that question would have to let us see! seriously though, every year when i think about this topic, i look at the nature of my fears right here and now. this morning most of my fears center around my view of myself and my place in the lives of those around me. i am afraid that i am not getting any better, and that the process is not really working anymore. i have days like this morning, when i cannot do anything right, either professionally or spiritually and i want to run away and hide somewhere warm and primitive. so what do i NEED to do on mornings like these??? well what i have been doing is closing me eyes, quieting my mind, and asking GOD to start my day over again. and you know it has worked a couple of times already and i have accomplished a few things and am almost ready to move forward to some new stuff. i am doing my best to have FAITH that i can work with what i have and fulfill my responsibilities without causing any more damage.
so back to the grind and doing a bit of letting go and learning to replace my fear with FAITH that i do have the tools necessary to live this spiritual path. life is far too brief to wallow in FEAR after all!

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