Blog entry for:

it means i work the steps, allowing me to look at my role in my relationships with others. so already this morning, i was snide with the clueless tool who happened to answer my customer support request, and to put my house in order with this company, i am moving two more clients away from them. one per their request and one more per mine. the lesson i am taking away from this, is that IF i want to keep my customers, i NEED to provide them with the service they have come to expect from me, namely timely resolution of their issues.
so now that i have dealt with the very recent past, what is rolling around my cranium right now? a very good question. as i pensively consider this question, what i feel is that i am coming close to seeing myself in an entirely different light, and as a result, my relationships have been and will be forever changed. i do need to go back a smooth a few ruffled feathers that were a result of the changes that were manifest in me. i also need to strengthen the new relationships i have made and make my decisions on where the old stagnant ones are going, or better put, what i am going to do with those old stagnant relationships. this morning, i am certain that all of this part of the spiritual awakening i have had, as a result of this step cycle. as much as i desire what has been, because like many other addicts in recovery, i loath change, i now know that what was is no longer acceptable to me. the relationships that are not growing are probably going -- right into the cosmic bit bucket.
oops got a bit of business to take care of BRB
okay i am back so yes i had to run for a second to deal with a responsibility. life is like that, or at least my life is, sometimes i just need to drop everything and deal with what is on my mind, before it gets pushed down the stack and forgotten.
i am saddened that some of the relationships i once held dearest are ending up gone. some of these stagnant relationships are with my family, and although they are fairly immutable, at least as far as the other party is concerned, i do have strong enough ties with them, that i will have to accept that these relationships will only change at a glacial pace, if at all. instead of being frustrated i move into surrender and acceptance. as my friend Dan says with a little more conviction these days " it is what it is!"
i get that and am ready to smooth those feathers, sit down with the sponse to move forward and continue the learning process of being true to myself first. so out into this chilly morning for a trot around the hood.

∞ DT ∞