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sponsorship, service, and a relationship with a Higher Power are the basics of the recovery program i live to my best ability, day in and day out. so my day is all sorts of weirdly shaped. i coded in my damn head all night long, had to get out at six AM to shower and get my car to the shop by eight and i have to stay ho,me the rest of the day, as my clutch gets replaced. i may be writing this at my usual time and it is a fact, that i have done everything i usually would have got done by the time i write this, so if i consider deeply, my day is exactly as it needs to be, right here and right now.
coming back to the topic 'o the day, opening my mind to applying recovery in different ways than the basics, is not one that i often consider. i may be socially liberal and woke as hell, BUT, when it comes to my recovery program i am staunchly conservative, eschewing the ideas and opinions of others. my source material suggests, strongly, that perhaps. there might be some merit in the opinions of others, especially those that are way out of my comfort zone. i certainly KNOW what has kept me clean for all these days, and being open-minded was part of that skill-set. as i am writing this, i am thinking of one of the men i sponsor and the issue with which he has become frustrated. i can read my own handwriting all over his step work and i see that he, like me, has become more than a bit rigid in our beliefs about what the program, is and is not. i do not believe that this fellowship is where one comes to stay sick, no matter who says it or how many times i hear that little piece of shit. if one applies oneself and allows the process to happen, pone cannot help but get better, despite what all the college educated and medically trained professionals may say. i may not be a fan of “treatment” stuff that has crept into the meetings and i am certainly not a fan of “we” versions of any of our literature. i am a fan of unity and in the name of unity, i accept that others are probably doing the best they can with what they got and they believe that is working for all of us.
as i get to end of my thoughts on this subject, i can tell you that no time soon will i be leading a closing prayer in any sort of version that is not written in our literature. i can also say without and=y doubt, that i will not encourage any of my peers to use the meetings as group therapy. i also will encourage my peers, who find themselves with issues that they cannot address withing the structure of recovery, to stay clean, stay on their recovery journey and seek professional help. i still believe that DRT is NOT recovery, but i do not express that opinion in public, unless i am asked about it. life is tough enough for all of us, as it is, i will take what i hear, roll it around my noggin and evaluate whether or not it may be something to try, rather than pitching it out, the second i hear it. one never knows, perhaps there is a diamond in that rough, waiting for me to uncover it. 🧿

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