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momentary relief from having to take a look at myself, and sometimes, that momentary relief is more than enough. that is not what i actually heard before i started my 90 minute drive down to my new gig. man, what a hassle, and i cannot wait until i get my magic key and the drive goes away, until that day…
the real topic that came to my mind, through thinking about the state of others and their recovery programs, is how can i avoid being part of the problem. i know that i am far from perfect, further on some days than others, but just a human that has the added burden of addiction. there are days that i am self-centered, selfish and have very few redeeming qualities, whereas there are others when everything i am about is based on spiritual principles. most days however, are a mix of good and bad, just like me, and when I get to the end of my day, i am grateful for a process, that helps me sort out the wheat from the chaff, as the saying goes! the amazing part of this morning, is that even though I wanted to be here sooner than i got here, and traffic sucked, I did not use the one finger salute on the discourteous drivers I encountered along my journey, and more importantly I did not cut anyone off, or drive aggressively to shave off those 30 seconds that action usually brings me. The day is young and I have a repeat journey this afternoon, to return to my home. w hen my team arrives, i will be asking for a bit of relief in this regard, but in the meantime, i am going to take a quick break, make my daily call and let the world catch up with me. when the time to review my day comes, and IF i find stuff that needs correction I will gratefully add it to my to-do list, after all, doing the best i can, is something I can almost do better tomorrow, if i take care of the crap i generate today.

∞ DT ∞