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Fri, Oct 23, 2009 11:29:38 AM
⊗ when i admit my powerlessness, i stop trying to control and manage my; ⊗
posted: Fri, Oct 23, 2009 11:29:38 AM
my way to a better life -- i surrender. well i have had better starts to my day. not that anything real bad has happened, just the frustration of trying to get things to work on the system. so it goes. i am about to give up, surrender as it were and allow myself to move forward with some other stuff.
i think i am having one of the HP shots day, where no matter what i think is the next right thing it is not -- DANG IT! so what does surrendering mean to me today? well for one, stop beating my head up against the wall. if things will not work, they will not work and i can move on to something else. it also means that i need to STOP and take a moment to get my head in the right place, which is the her and now. i have a bunch of stuff that would be nice to do, a bunch of stuff that i HAVE to do, and all of this is going to get done, the HAVE to’s anyhow.
so it is off to gas up the automobile and get some stuff from the store than back at this pain in the BUTT.
BTW i am excited about convention this weekend.
i think i am having one of the HP shots day, where no matter what i think is the next right thing it is not -- DANG IT! so what does surrendering mean to me today? well for one, stop beating my head up against the wall. if things will not work, they will not work and i can move on to something else. it also means that i need to STOP and take a moment to get my head in the right place, which is the her and now. i have a bunch of stuff that would be nice to do, a bunch of stuff that i HAVE to do, and all of this is going to get done, the HAVE to’s anyhow.
so it is off to gas up the automobile and get some stuff from the store than back at this pain in the BUTT.
BTW i am excited about convention this weekend.
∞ DT ∞
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
3) It is by avoiding such indulgence that such weariness does not
arise.