β i earn rewards and learn to handle them as i do β
Posted: Tue, Dec 1, 2009 08:05:12 AM
confining my prayers to requests for knowledge of the will of a HIGHER POWER and the power to carry it out, will ensure that i get no more than i can handle.
okay, yesterday was not my best day ever. even though not all that much happened, my plans were altered from the very start and never seemed to get back on track until i laid my head down on my pillow and closed my eyes to drift off to sleep. this morning has had a few challenges, and today, i do believe i will listen for what is really going on, instead of trying to force what i want to go on. you know make plans, do the footwork, see the results, and alter plans as necessary, accepting all the time that this must be the way it is supposed to be.
all of that aside, this has very little to do with what i heard in my quiet time this morning. when i first read the entry, i was once again in one of those ‘yeah, yeah, yeah’ modes, you know, been there, done that, wrote the book, and waiting for Hollywood to call. would it be nice to have things show up in my life simply by asking for them, and doing absolutely no work? quite honestly, there are days when i would say CERTAINLY! would i be the type to pray for things to be given to me without work? not really, as my cosmological and metaphysical framework came together with only great patience on my part, and to rest it on as assumption that i can have anything i want, if i pray for it, is far too much risk to take. so my motives, for not playing that game are not nearly as pure as i would like to have them, BUT you know what, that works for me. nowhere in the program does it say that i MUST pray for this or that, EXCEPT in step 11 where it tells me to pray ONLY FOR…
for me, for this whole gig to work, spiritually and emotionally, there has to be more than a bit of self-support. if i want a new car, or the latest and greatest shiny new toy, all i have to do is work for it, in fact i have the feeling that working for that new thing, or that reward would give me greater satisfaction in the long run.
i want what i want, that part has yet to change in me, BUT today i am willing to do what it takes to GET what i WANT. i am tired of sitting on my ass expecting to be given anything that i have yet to earn. which brings me to the end of this random brain drain. if i want to have a fit body, i could pray for it, OR i could go hit the streets and earn it. my choice today is the latter, so off into the dawn i run and into this brand new day.
okay, yesterday was not my best day ever. even though not all that much happened, my plans were altered from the very start and never seemed to get back on track until i laid my head down on my pillow and closed my eyes to drift off to sleep. this morning has had a few challenges, and today, i do believe i will listen for what is really going on, instead of trying to force what i want to go on. you know make plans, do the footwork, see the results, and alter plans as necessary, accepting all the time that this must be the way it is supposed to be.
all of that aside, this has very little to do with what i heard in my quiet time this morning. when i first read the entry, i was once again in one of those ‘yeah, yeah, yeah’ modes, you know, been there, done that, wrote the book, and waiting for Hollywood to call. would it be nice to have things show up in my life simply by asking for them, and doing absolutely no work? quite honestly, there are days when i would say CERTAINLY! would i be the type to pray for things to be given to me without work? not really, as my cosmological and metaphysical framework came together with only great patience on my part, and to rest it on as assumption that i can have anything i want, if i pray for it, is far too much risk to take. so my motives, for not playing that game are not nearly as pure as i would like to have them, BUT you know what, that works for me. nowhere in the program does it say that i MUST pray for this or that, EXCEPT in step 11 where it tells me to pray ONLY FOR…
for me, for this whole gig to work, spiritually and emotionally, there has to be more than a bit of self-support. if i want a new car, or the latest and greatest shiny new toy, all i have to do is work for it, in fact i have the feeling that working for that new thing, or that reward would give me greater satisfaction in the long run.
i want what i want, that part has yet to change in me, BUT today i am willing to do what it takes to GET what i WANT. i am tired of sitting on my ass expecting to be given anything that i have yet to earn. which brings me to the end of this random brain drain. if i want to have a fit body, i could pray for it, OR i could go hit the streets and earn it. my choice today is the latter, so off into the dawn i run and into this brand new day.
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