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to live with the consequences of the rewards life brings me, is an interesting topic. right now i am in one of those situations. i have a job that hired me with high expectations that i am failing to live up to. my thirty day clock has not started ticking yet, but i am concerned and am nerding harder than ever. i have to live in the FAITH that i am not only capable of living and working up to their expectations, i might even be able to exceed those expectations, given some time. i am still having trouble chaining myself to the keyboard, after years of being a slacker, but i am getting better at not finding things to distract me when i NEED to be pounding out the hits. this is more about work ethic and less about what i know and how i can put it together.
one of the most distracting things my day brings, is fantasy football. no matter how hard i attempt to limit looking for the magic bullet in that game, i end-up reading all sorts of articles about what player i should be picking up and starting. i know that is only a game and i also know that i have plenty of time, outside of work to do just that, and yet, time and again, i find myself going down the rabbit hole of my weekly match-up and how to decimate my opponent. for me, right here and right now, i need to focus on what is in front of me, which is the work i am being paid very well to do. this is my dream job and right now it is mine to lose, if i choose to continue down the path i have been on. the consequence of this gift, is that i have to get myself ready to commit the time to doing what needs to be done.
when i look at the process i have made since starting a physical fitness program for cold hard cash, i am pretty sure i have it within me to be intellectually fit as well. the time i put in over my break is already paying off and when i get the task on my plate completed today, i can pop that one out as well, as i now understand what i am doing a bit better in that code base. this morning, although it is still dark, i think it is time to post this exercise and allow myself the freedom to get miles under my feet. chaining myself to the keyboard until my dentist appointment this afternoon, may be just the trick today. after that, well things will be a bit different for sure. i know that as well, is something i need to do and i am fortunate to have the resources to do just that. it is a good day to allow myself to ask for what i need and see if my wants get gifted to me as well.

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