โ good times, bad times โ
Posted: Mon, Mar 7, 2005 05:54:15 AM
today i am not feeling all that tip-top so the reading about being in good times and forgetting where i came from was not what i wanted to hear. the reminder that my first priority is to stay clean and grow in my recovery was a good reminder for me. this mood will pass and i will be once again in a different spot, but as i am here i think it sucks. i feel hopeless and overwhelmed this morning and nothing new is going on in my life. the same chaos is spinning around me, i am still going to work, i am still doing what i need to on a daily basis to stay clean and yes i am surviving my feelings and life in general. i just do not feel like i am thriving today and that is the nature of my whiny mood today. nothing is good enough, not my recovery, not my job, not my relationships with myself and others and especially not my relationship with GOD.
so i know what i NEED to do, STAY CLEAN NO MATTER WHAT and FEEL whatever i am feeling and let myself move through to whatever is coming next. and i have FAITH that i can survive this and much more today!
∞ DT ∞
so i know what i NEED to do, STAY CLEAN NO MATTER WHAT and FEEL whatever i am feeling and let myself move through to whatever is coming next. and i have FAITH that i can survive this and much more today!
∞ DT ∞