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i am acting against the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery.
alright, yes i am still on this kick of using intricate terminology for a simple three letter word. why? i do not know, but this morning i am a bit queasy when i use that particular three letter word. although hearing it does not get the same rise out of me, it is what it is and i can accept that today.
is that part of the will of my HP for me? dunno, do not care. what i do care about today, is listening to what is going on around me for clues to what i NEED to be doing, RIGHT HERE and RIGHT NOW!i have never been a big one for interpreting the signs and reading meaning into events or even my dreams. in fact, i have been downright derisive of those who are. i am coming to see, that the longer i stay clean the less i really do know about how things work in the interaction between the profane and the divine. well that is not entirely true, you know a bit of hyperbole always gets the juices flowing. i may not GET a whole lot about how this works, but what i have discovered is that if i stop and allow myself the opportunity to be part of the world around me i do begin to get a glimpse of what is going on, especially in my own sphere of interaction with the spiritual. the reading this morning reminded me of what my sponse keeps telling me, namely that the longer i stay clean, the more i apply the steps and the principles of recovery in my life, the more i am present for what is going on, the MORE i can start to trust my intuition. not that it is 100% accurate all the time, but it is getting better and i am getting better at allowing myself to feel what the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery is for me.
anyhow, i am start to feel that i NEED to finish solving this problem at work, so i will sign-off by reminding myself that there is a plan, i am proivy to most of it, IF I ALLOW MYSELF to be quiet and listen.

∞ DT ∞