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continues to be become less a **knowing** thing and more a **feeling** thing. case in point: after one of my peers regurgitated the entire daily reading yesterday, talking about how **we** do this and **we** have to do that, i was going to cross-share, letting them know that they do not speak for me or anyone else when they share their opinion, and it is about time they learned that. the amazing part, is this member knows better but seems to have forgotten what it is that keeps us, and i do mean that in the collective sense, clean. no instead, i paused, counted to ten and then the rest of the meeting there were no pregnant pauses, until the burning desires portion, and i was not about to hold the meeting hostage with my opinionated spew.
i did not know that the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery, was for me to be quiet and let it go. i did however feel that i needed to pause and allow my head to catch-up with my passion. that was feeling my way to the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery. as i grow, more and more gets stripped away from that POWER, how i interact with IT, and most importantly how i hear the “voice” of that POWER. the mystery and the mysticism, is stripped away and i am left with a direct connection to something beyond my description, so why describe IT, or even attempt to understand IT.
just as this is my place to let the world know how i am feeling, last night was not the time nor the place to tell one of my peers that they need to get a new sponsor and start working steps again, as they are straying far from the mark and moving out to the edge. that is opinion and not fact, i am entitled to my opinions, fringe or center of the pack, but i am NOT entitled to broadcasts them to anyone withing earshot. the POWER that fuels my recovery has given me a mind, quite a discerning one from time to time, so to deny my insight is just plain wrong. that same POWER has given me a mouth and a conscience as well. when the three of those are put together, there certainly can be a whole lot of shaking going on, causing all sorts of collateral damage. just because is no longer a good enough reason for me, and i have to feel in my heart, the will of that POWER before i act on my passion.
so what was the message i ended up hearing last night? that i too could be a parrot without an original thought in my head, if i do not embrace what has been given to me, am and more importantly give it away to anyone who may need it. i can act without pausing to see how it feels, or i can walk in the not at all mysterious will of the POWER that fuels my recovery, i have the tools to succeed at that today.

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