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with a very important caveat, only when they feel right.
if i acted on what i have been feeling over the past twenty-four hours i would have many amends to make. i am still angry at events that occurred that were way beyond my power to control, in fact i am angry most of the time lately, at home, at work and just walking through my day-today stuff. yes there are some things i can clean-up, one of which is to reach out and let one of my peers in recovery know that regardless of what happened, he still did the right thing (almost), and that i still care for him.
the anger i have chosen to hold on to, however is another matter, that i have held on to for way to long. my anger has come between me and someone i care deeply for, even though she had no part in what happened either. you could say that my anger is quickly turning into resentments and that may be a good thing as the time to be moving into my forth step has long since past, now at least i have a few new resentments to write about, maybe. just writing this down and thinking about how silly this feeling is, helps me to release my anger and let go. after all, i do not need to be walking around carrying other people's shit, i have enough of my own to deal with.
so what is my intuition telling me to do? let go of my anger, make amends to the person i love for letting other people's stuff come between us at all and move on with my life.
and that is what the reading seemed to be saying to me this morning, i may not get signs from above about what GOD's will is for me, but i am developing and intuitive sense of right and wrong, and i need to allow myself to do what is right in this situation and to do what is right for me, so i can see beyond my own selfish self-centered stuff and glimpse my own TRUE will once again.
∞ DT ∞