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has been replaced by learning to rely on my intuition and trust my feelings, when it comes to **knowing** the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery. my search for the clues to living life as i need to live it has often boiled down to a sick feeling in my gut. as much as i try and deny it, the fact is that feeling is where my conscience has moved to and the feeling is not all that much different than the feeling i used to get just before i would…
coincidentally, just the other day, i spoke of not being a “GOD” kind of guy and that i did not seek “signs” from my dreams and seemingly random events that fill my life. that is still a fact. i do, however. pay attention to those seemingly random events and do see that oftentimes they are indications that i am living my life in a less than spiritual manner. gut check or no gut check, when i detect a pattern that seems to center around me and my behaviors, it is certainly time for me to at least wake up tom the fact that perhaps it is i, not the rest of the universe that is out of sync.
on this morning after the referendum on misogynist, racist, white male privilege, i am impressed with the gains that were accomplished in turning the tide. like many others, i have been distressed by the direction my homeland has taken to suppress, repress and depress anyone outside of that living fossil of a club or the privileged few. do i wish further gains were made in advancing the elimination of the last gasp surge or holding on to what is theirs? of course i do, but today i am willing to accept that change does not come overnight and the fear-mongering over the past few years is a tough hill to climb. politics is about to become more shrill and i am hoping that shrillness will be the dog whistle to wake up partisans who feel like i do, that nature and demographics need to take their course and evolution of the next great society where there are plenty of others at the table, starts to become a reality.
i had thought about going on about hos i see the political landscape and decided that maybe i have said enough. perhaps, instead of pounding home that point i will simply say that just for today, i am grateful that i can live in the here and now and fight the FEAR and superstition that once ruled me, with a bit of sane and rational thinking. i am no longer afraid of what will become of me, after i let go of my birthright into a club that has been using FEAR and LOATHING in DC as their banner and rallying cry. nor am i afraid to pay attention to the world around me and see the signs of what is going on and ass them to my growing perception of “feeling” GOD's will for me and my life. it is a good day to walk in the sunlight and yes i will end this here, before i add some cynical and sarcastic little trope, just for today.

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