โข as i watch other addicts recover, โข
Posted: Sat, Jul 7, 2012 08:34:20 AM
i will recognize the POWER that fuels their recovery in them so i can better recognize that POWER in myself.
alrighty than, what is up this morning. it is cooler and i am in not quite the hurry to get out and run before it gets way to hot. the rain last night has scrubbed the smoke out of the sir for now, so when i do run, it will not be as if i am running through a bonfire. oh yeah, and i am still looking at ASSETS, kind of stalled, as i get to the end of my FOURTH STEP. it is not surprising that i would choose to stall right there, after all, i am a spiritual masochist from time to time. so to get the spiritual relief that this section provides, would be a natural place for me to stop. i am however, more than just an addict, and i do have assets and am worth the balance to my writing that enumerating my assets will provide. now that i have sent my little piece of hate mail, spent a little bit of money, i guess i can no longer be distracted by the squirrels, as one of my friends in recovery is apt to say. what did i really hear when i sat down this morning?
i heard absolutely nothing, in fact the silence and the darkness was just a bit unnerving. it does not mean that somehow i have lost my connection, but what it does mean, has yet to be revealed to me. what is also does not mean, is that somehow i am lost. with that in mind, i think i will just mov e into my workout and leave the esoteric divine stuff lay where it will. since i always seem to get some clarity as i work off the calories, perhaps this morning will be no different, and yes tonight will be the night i dive into my assets and see what i can uncover there, after all i cannot move on to STEP FIVE, with STEP FOUR unfinished.
alrighty than, what is up this morning. it is cooler and i am in not quite the hurry to get out and run before it gets way to hot. the rain last night has scrubbed the smoke out of the sir for now, so when i do run, it will not be as if i am running through a bonfire. oh yeah, and i am still looking at ASSETS, kind of stalled, as i get to the end of my FOURTH STEP. it is not surprising that i would choose to stall right there, after all, i am a spiritual masochist from time to time. so to get the spiritual relief that this section provides, would be a natural place for me to stop. i am however, more than just an addict, and i do have assets and am worth the balance to my writing that enumerating my assets will provide. now that i have sent my little piece of hate mail, spent a little bit of money, i guess i can no longer be distracted by the squirrels, as one of my friends in recovery is apt to say. what did i really hear when i sat down this morning?
i heard absolutely nothing, in fact the silence and the darkness was just a bit unnerving. it does not mean that somehow i have lost my connection, but what it does mean, has yet to be revealed to me. what is also does not mean, is that somehow i am lost. with that in mind, i think i will just mov e into my workout and leave the esoteric divine stuff lay where it will. since i always seem to get some clarity as i work off the calories, perhaps this morning will be no different, and yes tonight will be the night i dive into my assets and see what i can uncover there, after all i cannot move on to STEP FIVE, with STEP FOUR unfinished.
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