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to the POWER behind the message i carry.
first off, yes i took that wishy-washy word **try** out of the seed i used for this little ditty. some times, i just find that those who sat and wrote the literature were more concern ed about not offending anyone, back in those days, that they made everything a bit softer that they needed to do. there it is my little soap box about the language, the real stuff starts here.
paying attention is not something i have ever been very good at doing. i am much better now than i ever was, and attention to details, especially in my active recovery life are important. so when i paid attention to what i was feeling this morning, it is not quite what i thought it was when i yanked the seed for this. ironically, though, that really is not important as that is where i think i will start.
what is the POWER behind the message i carry? over the past few days, i have heard more than one of my peers speak of carrying the message to the new guy, as their primary purpose in recovery. i can go on about how wrong that may be on several levels, but instead i can tell you that is not the primary purpose of my active recovery program, mine is to become the sort of man that in concordance with the POWER that fuels my recovery and the vision that POWER is giving me glimpses of every day. in order to fulfill that lofty goal, the first thing i have to do is stay clean, then live a program of active recovery, and as part of that program carry the message of HOPE. so for me, the new guy is number three on my to do list today. at least that is how the POWER that fuels my recovery, speaks top me. as i sat with one of the men i sponsor last night, i spoke the standard sponsor speech about recovery NEEDS to remain one's top priority, however that looked for him. it was not that i thought that he was dangerously close to picking up, no i gave the speech because many of us are masters of self-destruction and use to burn down any success we may have accomplished. before he painted himself into a spiritual corner, i wanted him to know that there was a way out and that at least for me, my recovery is the highest priority every day. i did not stay clean this long, by wishing it so. the POWER that fuels my recovery, provides me the desire to stay clean and staying clean strengthens my relationship with that POWER, in a very healthy and positive feedback loop, and when i share with others, i always HOPE it that POWER speaking and not my self-will.
anyhow, it is time to shower off, make the 50 ft commute and get going on another day of gainful employment, which is also a gift from the POWER that fuels my recovery, no not the job, the desire to to the job to the best of my ability.

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