โ i often end up going from morning to night without taking time out โ
Posted: Thu, Jul 3, 2014 08:15:26 AM
to improve my conscious contact with the POWER that fuels my recovery.
man this was tough to get going this morning, as i forgot all sorts of passwords as i walked through getting this rolling on my bus ride. so it goes, one minute at a time for right now.
so i was nervous and anxious the past few mornings, and this reading point out why. i may have had my quiet time, but i did not ask for the power to stay clean. as i was sitting down to listen this morning, i realized it had been a few days since i asked, and not asking, while not necessarily detrimental to me, just for today, can become problematic, if i become habituated to not asking for the power to stay clean. in fact, i was noodling around with the idea, that maybe, some of the stuff i do every day, was becoming unnecessary, after all…
so this morning i asked and although i attempted to listen, my head was full of plans to get rolling on up north to my family gig, rather than allowing myself the freedom to listen, quietly, and without the white noise that sometimes fills my head.
the bus ride i way too quick this morning and after those few disparate thoughts i wonder if i really have anything else to write about. what i have concluded is, not really. i am glad to be clean today. i am glad i have the resources to get my a$$ up to my family home and am glad that i realize where the power to stay clean comes from, the POWER that fuels my recovery and not from inside of me and today that is more than just okay.
man this was tough to get going this morning, as i forgot all sorts of passwords as i walked through getting this rolling on my bus ride. so it goes, one minute at a time for right now.
so i was nervous and anxious the past few mornings, and this reading point out why. i may have had my quiet time, but i did not ask for the power to stay clean. as i was sitting down to listen this morning, i realized it had been a few days since i asked, and not asking, while not necessarily detrimental to me, just for today, can become problematic, if i become habituated to not asking for the power to stay clean. in fact, i was noodling around with the idea, that maybe, some of the stuff i do every day, was becoming unnecessary, after all…
so this morning i asked and although i attempted to listen, my head was full of plans to get rolling on up north to my family gig, rather than allowing myself the freedom to listen, quietly, and without the white noise that sometimes fills my head.
the bus ride i way too quick this morning and after those few disparate thoughts i wonder if i really have anything else to write about. what i have concluded is, not really. i am glad to be clean today. i am glad i have the resources to get my a$$ up to my family home and am glad that i realize where the power to stay clean comes from, the POWER that fuels my recovery and not from inside of me and today that is more than just okay.
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