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really does not seem that long, in the BIG scheme of things. twenty minutes, however, was once of those goals that i never believed i would ever reach. my, my, my how times have changed. i may not ever understand why some of my peers do not choose to apply them selves to the regimen of quiet time, and i really do not have to. for me, that oasis away from the chaos of life on life's terms, is more than enough reason for me to keep at it.
today, the angst and the internal turmoil that has saddled every fiber of my being over the past sixteen months or so, is gone. sure, i still seek approval from my friends and peers and am not doing a hike next weekend, because i am afraid of being embarrassed, by my lack of speed when climbing fourteeners. i may be “1000%” better at than a year ago, but in my estimation, i still suck at doing it. i made it through the last 1500 feet of vertical gain on Thursday, without sitting down and at a pace that astounded me. for once, i did not feel dizzy, sick to my stomach or have a headache. what that indicates is that i am on the right track and some low level climbing exercises will get me in a place where i will feel more confident about going to the top of Colorado. another hiking season and i may want to put doing all the fourteeners in Colorado on my bucket list. with nine down and forty-six to go, i am not quite ready to make that commitment to myself, today, anyhow.
it is a great day to be clean and i think that i will take it easy for a bit of time and finish my book, before i strike up a cigar and do more training to sharpen my skills. i can also say, that i am still feeling the effects of my climb the other day, so i have to remember to keep moving every hour to get that stiffness out. quiet time, mine anyhow, is not something i can do without. downshifting into neutral for the day, may not be a bad plan either, just for today.

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