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Wed, Aug 3, 2005 05:40:32 AM
α depending on trust α
posted: Wed, Aug 3, 2005 05:40:32 AM
i am in a pensive mood this morning and the reading this morning was not much help, it started a whole chain of thoughts about who and what i really do trust today.
considering my life lately, i am wondering if i really have come to learn how to trust anyone, including myself. am i really open to those i share the program of recovery with? do i really trust my sponsor, my peers in recovery and my friends? do i trust myself to do the next right thing? do i trust the program to guide me? do i trust GOD to provide for my needs? i really wish i could answer yes to all these questions, but today all i can say is a definite MAYBE! so now where does all this mental masturbation leave me?? nowhere really!
so the next right thing to do, at least right here and right now is for me to act ‘as if’ i trust all of these people and concepts and move forward with my day. it has been my experience over the brief time i have been clean that i can behave my way into better thinking. i know that my sponsor has never betrayed my trust. i know that my friends in the program have never betrayed my trust. and so far the evidence is that GOD has not betrayed my trust.
so on that note, it is time to get busy and validate the trust my employer has in me and do the job they pay me for, and see what happens.
∞ DT ∞
considering my life lately, i am wondering if i really have come to learn how to trust anyone, including myself. am i really open to those i share the program of recovery with? do i really trust my sponsor, my peers in recovery and my friends? do i trust myself to do the next right thing? do i trust the program to guide me? do i trust GOD to provide for my needs? i really wish i could answer yes to all these questions, but today all i can say is a definite MAYBE! so now where does all this mental masturbation leave me?? nowhere really!
so the next right thing to do, at least right here and right now is for me to act ‘as if’ i trust all of these people and concepts and move forward with my day. it has been my experience over the brief time i have been clean that i can behave my way into better thinking. i know that my sponsor has never betrayed my trust. i know that my friends in the program have never betrayed my trust. and so far the evidence is that GOD has not betrayed my trust.
so on that note, it is time to get busy and validate the trust my employer has in me and do the job they pay me for, and see what happens.
∞ DT ∞
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These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
1) The movement of the Tao
By contraries proceeds;
And weakness marks the course
Of Tao's mighty deeds.