remembering what works
Posted: Wed, Jul 21, 2004 05:16:30 AM
well this is the second time i started writing this entry.
the first time sounded pompous and arrogant to me. not exactly what i need to recover today.
yes i sometimes believe that not only do i know a little about this process, i think i know it all. there are no new pieces to learn and i do not need to surrender to the fact that i need the theraputic value of one addict helping another.
well the real truth is now more than ever i need the help of addicts to recover. i need to surrender on a daily basis to the simple fact that i am an addict and that this diseaes will kill me, no matter how many days i have been clean.
this is the real thing, my life has never been better and that is because i choose not use on a daily basis. i also hope that no matter how things are today that if i continue this process, i will continue to progress and grow.
BUT
for this to continue i must give up any notions of advanced insight into myself or the program itself. i must continue to surrender to the simple fact that i was and am powereless over the disease of addiction and my life is unmanageable as a result
-- DT --
the first time sounded pompous and arrogant to me. not exactly what i need to recover today.
yes i sometimes believe that not only do i know a little about this process, i think i know it all. there are no new pieces to learn and i do not need to surrender to the fact that i need the theraputic value of one addict helping another.
well the real truth is now more than ever i need the help of addicts to recover. i need to surrender on a daily basis to the simple fact that i am an addict and that this diseaes will kill me, no matter how many days i have been clean.
this is the real thing, my life has never been better and that is because i choose not use on a daily basis. i also hope that no matter how things are today that if i continue this process, i will continue to progress and grow.
BUT
for this to continue i must give up any notions of advanced insight into myself or the program itself. i must continue to surrender to the simple fact that i was and am powereless over the disease of addiction and my life is unmanageable as a result
-- DT --