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as they share their experience, strength and hope, is certainly one way to get the answers i seek. i admit that i am an opinionated, biased and prejudiced human being, who thinks he might have many of the answers for what is plaguing his life today. i can over-complicate my life by intellectualizing my way into all sorts of situations that are not healthy for me and are detrimental to how i view the people with whom i share this world, today. there are times when i see the cognitive dissonance between where i “naturally” fall and where i want to be and i get to step back from the brink and “listen” for the answer. that is certainly evidence of HOPE and FAITH working in my life and of me letting go of what i “think” i need to know. the issue for me, is that i can easily discount what i hear my peers saying because they fall into a similar trap of touting the healthy changes that are occurring, while ignoring those aspects they think no one can see. what i “heard” in the reading today, is that by discounting what the valuable information i am hearing by applying a valid judgement, will keep me from hearing the answers i seek.
having dealt with the core of what i heard this morning, i get to move into a tangent that has been part of what i have been “hearing” a whole lot lately, namely the polarization of society based on the politics of fear. being a person who was born in a time where i “got” to explore the fantasy of the “\'American Dream,” i can see why members of my race and gender are clinging so tight to the “privilege” they were cultured into believing was their birthright. those who have power today, are playing into that fear and using their idiot mouthpiece to divide Americans into “us” and “them” to distract everyone form what is really going on, the wholesale destruction of world to feed the corporate overlords addiction to more. just a new version of “bread and circuses” writ large.
am i afraid of becoming a minority in my country, with all its attendant consequences? maybe, more than i want to admit, but learning to live under a cloud of suspicion because of the amount of melanin in my skin, or lack thereof, is not the sort of future i desire. learning consume less and produce more is not a lifestyle this sixty-two year old white male wants to embrace, but it certainly appears to be coming down the pike, regardless of the tripe i am being fed by the talking media heads want me to believe.
even with all this chaos going on, the HOPE, for me anyhow is that i can adapt to this new world order, let go of my fears of what “may” happen and allow myself the freedom to stay clean and live another day in active recovery. maybe the answers i am seeking to this and many of the other societal issues that are weighing heavily in my mind, will come, if i let go and allow myself to “feel” to the next right thing, just for today.

∞ DT ∞