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well it has been quite a morning so far, i woke up early and decided there was really nothing to do, so i pretended to sleep for another hour, and boy did i get slammed. anyhow the major fires have been extinguished and during my breather and morning smoke, i have decided to see if i can let go and write this little ditty.
so anyhow, what was GOD telling me this morning?? perhaps it was the day to get started early and i chose to ignore that voice. perfectly in line with the reading this morning, GOD speaks and once again i choose to ignore that voice, because i of course know better! okay point taken. something my sponsor says is that when GOD speaks, he gets a tap on the shoulder, getting harder and harder until he has to be hit upside the head with a two by four. apparently that has to be the same process for me. OUCH!
well that is changing, at least in some respects, my HOPE is that as i continue along the path of recovery, i will listen to the voice of my HIGHER POWER with a bit more diligence. so what preconceived ideas and opinions am i struggling with today? right here and right now, i do not see any really active, but i am sure that the part of me i call my disease has more than i few surprises for me as i progress through my day. so which voice do i choose to hear -- and now i know i am beginning to sound like some kind of psych patient struggling with voices, the voices, ARGHHHHHHHHH!
well like any perfectly insane person, i deal with all kinds of conflicting signals in a single day, and i do not imagine that will change for quite a while. i am getting better, but not as fast as i want to. the changes manifest in my life will continue, i will learn how to listen, and perhaps i will start to really listen to what GOD is trying to tell me, regardless of where it happens to come from.

∞ DT ∞