ฮฑ nothing to share ฮฑ
Posted: Sun, Mar 19, 2006 04:06:35 PM
after six hundred miles, a few snow showers, an extended sharing session, dozens of nuts drivers, a nice lunch, a nap and a soak, i am finally ready to write a bit. i know it is late in the day, but so it goes. and you know what, after thinking about it for a few more minutes i am beginning wonder if i really have anything of value to share today.
of course the reading today specifically states that; "Every addict working an honest program that brings meaningful recovery has something of immense value to share..."
and so the trick is to honestly share exactly what i am feeling right now. well thinking about the work i did with the trusted servants over across the mountain yesterday, i feel a sense of gratitude about living in an area where the service structure has risen from the ashes and now is actually working to provide services to the groups of our area. i do remember when my area‘ service structure was in shambles and how it affected the members of our fellowship and the trip to the junction reminded me of how far we have come. i can offer them the hope that they too can have a thriving area if they persist in doing the next right thing. thinking over my sharing last night, i feel like i always do; wondering if i reached anyone or if all that dropped out of my mouth was clichés, crap and ego. i really want to ask someone sometime what i sound like when i share like that but humility or fear prevents me from doing so. thinking over the cost i put om myself to participate as i did, i believe that it was worth it, my recovery is stronger because i was willing to do the next right thing and be present for those with whom all i share is the program of recovery. so did i have anything to share, i think so, was it worth the time to read it? do not know and do not care, li feel better having written this missive and after all it is all about ME!
of course the reading today specifically states that; "Every addict working an honest program that brings meaningful recovery has something of immense value to share..."
and so the trick is to honestly share exactly what i am feeling right now. well thinking about the work i did with the trusted servants over across the mountain yesterday, i feel a sense of gratitude about living in an area where the service structure has risen from the ashes and now is actually working to provide services to the groups of our area. i do remember when my area‘ service structure was in shambles and how it affected the members of our fellowship and the trip to the junction reminded me of how far we have come. i can offer them the hope that they too can have a thriving area if they persist in doing the next right thing. thinking over my sharing last night, i feel like i always do; wondering if i reached anyone or if all that dropped out of my mouth was clichés, crap and ego. i really want to ask someone sometime what i sound like when i share like that but humility or fear prevents me from doing so. thinking over the cost i put om myself to participate as i did, i believe that it was worth it, my recovery is stronger because i was willing to do the next right thing and be present for those with whom all i share is the program of recovery. so did i have anything to share, i think so, was it worth the time to read it? do not know and do not care, li feel better having written this missive and after all it is all about ME!
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