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in abundance, my experience living clean, in various states of recovery. what i have no experience with, however, is this new normal: having to shop at 7:00 AM to beat the selfish, self-centered hoarders and preppers. i have been to two grocery stores and only had one item i could not find. when did CHEX cereal become such a **must have*** item? i may even put on a rain coat and go for a walk, just to release some of the anger i am feeling, before i polish it up into a nice bright and shiny resentment.
i got to a “real” meeting, with real live addicts in recovery, last night. i did not realize how much i missed the fact that all of a sudden regularly scheduled meetings were mostly done on-line. part of this new normal that i am struggling with, this morning. living life in a pandemic is not making me a happy camper and i have to keep pausing before i go off on someone. in the store this morning they were limiting the amount of TP one could purchase to a single “multi-pack” and i seemed to be the only one checking out without TP or paper towels. it got me wondering if they knew something i did not, such as one can make masks out of TP and be protected out in public. 🥴
in my experience, i have never been through times like these so i lack knowledge or wisdom about how to deal with staying home, day after day, limiting my social contact and going to the grocery store to see what they “have” today. i have to fall back on my FAITH that i need to pay attention to my immediate world and take the opportunities i am presented with, to get what i need. we have a roof over our head, enough TP and paper towels to last for a while, food in the fridge and a job that is still paying me to work, even if it is from home. i also have the desire to stay clean, just for today and take care of myself. with that in mind, i think i will take a walk in the rain and get some steps in, as i need to release some emotions. and yes, that will be changing the way i feel, in case someone is keeping score.

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