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in others, are the very traits and behaviors i dislike in myself. boy, oh boy does this hit home this morning, as i have been whining, moaning and incessantly complaining about how others are, all the while paying no attention to the man behind the curtain: me. myself and i. this would be, of course, the place where i dive down a self-deprecating rabbit-hole, loaded with mea culpas, rationalizations and justifications, so i could purge my trespasses against others and walk into the light of self-forgiveness. not all that long ago, that certainly would have been the direction that i went. today, however, i see that it does little good to dwell on how “bad” i have been. that does not mean i sweep it under the spiritual carpet to be dealt with later. no, what i heard this morning as i sat was that i am better off acknowledging my humanity, owning what i have done, letting it go and walk out into the light of the solution, specifically to accept others as they are and to do my best to pay attention to the world around me and as i slip into self-obsession, recognize it for what it is and do my best to look at what i am missing as i look through the lens of self-interest.
as i detach from one social media platform and engage more on another, i am struck by how easy it is for me to be driven by the reactions and opinions of others, some of whom i do not even know. it is not odd that i have joined a movement on-line, as i have always had very strong political opinions that do not fit the text book definitions of “left” or “right.” now i find myself squarely on the left, because the right has moved far away from what i consider sound and sane notions of government. i certainly relish the delicious irony when i hear them screaming about government over-regulation of the lives of the citizenry, in none breath and the next screaming about how we “need” to limit the medical choices of all women, regardless of the circumstances. the whole notion of lifting oneself up by their boot straps and that race is not a governing factor in how someone is treated by much of law enforcement, flies in the face of reality. more and more as i look out into what is happening in the world, do i drift towards the left, and i am not sure that is such a bad thing.
there i go again, judging and stereotyping others to justify my shift in notions about how the world can achieve equality and equanimity. as always, i could go on and on, but i slept in this morning, because i chose to ignore my alarm., “just another five minutes”! well that turned into thirty and i have yet to recover those minutes through my morning activities, so i will go with what i have and make the best of the day ahead of me. oversleeping provided the excuse not to commute to work today, so i will go with the flow, just for right now.

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