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tolerance and self-acceptance are not exactly two spiritual principles that i automagically link. that being said, i can see how when i accept myself i can be be more tolerant of how others behave, as i am quite sure that the stuff i see in them that drives me to distraction, is the stuff i see in myself that i want to be rid of, forever. this morning, as i sat, the notion of the road to unconditional love, at least for me, rolls through tolerance and acceptance and is never smooth and almost never has speeds approaching anything that could be defined as rapid. it seems that tolerance is the best i can do and on most days, that is certainly juts barely good enough. right now there are two people in my life, peripheral as they may be to my daily spiritual condition, where the best i can do is tolerate them. it is a good thing that i see that and i can let go of the garbage that i might bring to the table, when dealing with them. accepting my current spiritual state in regards to them, allows me to let go of what they may or may not be doing that may or may not meet my exacting standards of behavior. so it goes …
coming back to the here and now, there are certainly more than a few things i need to accomplish today to meet what i have set out to do today. my list is far from extensive but each and every task is crucial to someone else and i have agreed to take the responsibility to get it done. certainly not a single victim in that, as i volunteered and none of what i have agreed to do, will take that much time, although one of the tasks may require a bit of planning and coordination. as this day unfolds, i am more than thrilled to see that at my age, the level of activity i have added to my life, has been shown to improve my general health without any limit, save for the time i can put into it. intuitively i guessed that when the chips were counted that would be the result, but having “proof” that since my earliest forays into daily activity, i have only been increasing my level of health does make me feel better about my effort, even though i could see and feel how it affected me, on a very personal level.
as i run out of things to write about, i know that how i treat myself is a good indication about how i will treat others. i know that i am coming to a place in one of my sponsor-sponsee relationships, where what is tolerable or acceptable about me, may no longer apply. if this relationship survives another ninety days, i will be surprised, bur stranger things have certainly happened in my recovery journey. as i step out into this morning to work on my task to improve my health, i am certain that i will get everything done that i have agreed to do and will have time to do what i need to do for myself, just for today.

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